Experience 37 – 42 OF 365.

As if it already isn’t obvious, things happen – hence why this is just being published. 6 weeks into 2022 and I just feel so grounded and soft with myself. AMAZING for me to presently feel. Corporate America is usually pretty hectic for me especially with the revolving holidays, but THIS WEEK was such a breeze.

I noticed myself feeling so calm that I almost ruined it by trying to convince myself “I’m clearly forgetting to do something; why do I feel this relaxed – ON THE CLOCK”. I didn’t forget anything. What I was actually feeling was is my anxiety forced into silenced from not having to go automatically into ‘overdrive’.

Experience 37 – I slept and watched more TV after a great weekend with the girls. I said “no” to everything I didn’t feel like doing . Guilt would somehow show itself and I would FOLD, except I didn’t.

Experience 38 – I allowed myself to sit in a place and embrace that my work anxiety didn’t exist. I didn’t feel the need to be glued to my work phone or emails.

Experience 39 – After 2 years , I finally got to see my therapist in person again. I even made it my duty TO PAY THE METER! Lol. I have not had to pay a meter since 2020.

Experience 40 – Was full of so much spontaneity! My best friend got out of work early and happened to be BABY & SPOUSE FREE– so we went for food and drinks. I realized I missed my group therapy session. The moment felt too good to even stress about it. I also skipped out on my scheduled blog post. ^{I’ve apologized to my therapist. No shows are not good.}

Experience 41 -I scrolled through social media endlessly. I usually post and go about my day; maybe reply here or there. This sense of relaxation I have been feeling – I allowed myself to take full advantage. My algorithm is full of funnies & fashion. No convincing necessary here!

Experience 42 – I go so much done by 5pm – I WAS ALMOST SHOCKED. There were hiccups but the way I’ve been knocking them out the MF park. I’m truly grateful for the tools!